*28.03.12*

on esimene päev

mis veedan sinuta

...igatsus.

kuid tean, et selle päeva

ja ka kõik järgmised

ma elan. elusalt

end muutes paremaks

ehk tasa targemaks

ja aina kasvades

on esimene päev

mil kaugelt sõnumeid

su poole lähetan

ja soojenen su hääles

on esimene päev

ma toksin telefoni tekstikasti sadu suudluseid

aeg ees veel pikk on oodata

pikk armastada vahemaa

on esimene päev

kuid tean, mu mõtete kalendris

üks koidab, teine päev

soe suveilm

õrn tuulehoog

ja sinu naeratus

taas tarduv ümbritsev

ja sinu silmad - silmad

on valgust täis

ja minu suul, mu huultel

taas omatahtsi naer

ja meie ümber maailm

las pöörleb edasi

me ees on terve elu

pikk avar armastus

ja nii ei tunne valu

ma olles üksinda need kuud

sest sinu hääl ja sõnad

ja soojus südamest

mind hoiab hoolimata 

me vahekaugustest

why

so many a thing I have learned in your land
and yet I have had to return

I'm a vessel, not empty nor full
so many a time I have left and arrived
so many a time felt the pull
towards Turkey
and never known why

many other a person has wondered
what it is that keeps bringing me back
last time, old and wise-eyed, a woman
said I must be on destiny's track

her words pierced me deep, as her eyesight
but I still could not say what I seek
as a rose growing petals, a bird earning wings
I am not.
I stand strong on my feet.

no singular value nor humanly joy
would fill me, none of them keep
me buying tickets
and packing my bags
not even the fun I have had

wrapped into her emerald gaze
I sighed as I had to admit
I haven’t the slightest idea
but fate is too strong of a word
I dare not to use it
I fear

however, many a time
her words ring so true in my ears

I am right where I needed to be
meeting people I needed to see
Turkey still, with its treasures enriches my heart
dominion it holds over me

for Fatih 

13th of March 2012

äkki

kuu sündis

päikese valgusesse

teadsid sa?

kuu sündis 

päikese valgusesse

kas nägid?

ei näinudki? kuis nii?

oled kindel?

olgu, sain aru,

sinu kuu ja su päike on eraldi veel

te veel kohtunud pole, kas nii?

aga mina, usu, nägin kuis hommiku eel

kuu sündis

armunult

mõistad sa?

ta valgus tuli mu ellu

birdenbire

ay doğmuş

güneş ışığına

biliyor muydun?

ay doğmuş

güneş ışığına

görüyor muydun?

görmedin mi? nasıl?

emin misin?

peki, anladım ki,

senin ayın, güneşın tam ayrı

hala tanımadın sen, değil mi?

fakat ben, inan bana, gördüm

ay doğmuş

aşıkmış

anlıyor musun?

ışığı girmiş hayatıma

breaking news! of hi-ss-tory.

if televised, the dead are more important
brought to court, the outrage more legit


once it happens off the frame 
nothing can support the claim
of suffering. no audience will hear
cruel deeds without a medium
don't have the same appeal
a distant pain is such a bore...


but hand me some photos of a war,
not black nor white, but crimson,
I emote. so sad. so dead. 


hollow eyes of starving children
twiglike limbs of detainees
mushroom clouds and brave young pilots
bring my heartstrings to my sleeve


did you see the towers crumble?
count the dead in middle east?
plain statistics are too humble
for the eye not quite the treat


hot and salty, sticky, rolling 
lower, dropping from the cheeks
I hope someone clicked record 
while men were murdered on the street
kids are crying and women wailing 
bright in color, clear in sound
and their woes gain more momentum 
and the punishment more ground


where is god? they yelled in anguish
where was man? were answered back
if you didn't catch the footage 
it won't count as proven fact


so go suffer if you have to 
but please try to entertain
I won't blink twice for the corpses
numbers really have no name