post-it

I wish

there were more

 hours in a day

that I could love

but that is why

each moment I

keep dear

is why

I love=)

kız-hız-lı

she's running she's running she's running away

far far far she must run
she must run from the hurt
far far far she can run
she's so able, alert

dump the boy who loves her text him farewell
put their home online we are ready to sell
leave the kitten she feeds to starve and run off
find new kicks from new toys, love isn't enough

she's running she's running still running away

far far far she must run
she must run from the hurt
cannot let this life
bore, choke her inert

ah my god the routine, routine how it hurts
must go running must leave must never revert
keep keep running behind her shadowy smirk
can can never escape the self or the dirt

waiting for a miracle

waiting for a miracle

a smile

one uncontrolled

waiting for a miracle

to solve the unresolved

the love

that I express

the love

that you repress

waiting for a miracle I pray

all the anger I digest

your contrived disinterest

how it brings to me distress

you choke words within your chest

I await, alone

with you

clasped within your hidden laugh

stuck within your beating heart

for miracles I pray, intent

my head at rest

now on your chest

your beating heart I hear

your beating heart

that never touches

only watches, beckons mine

one day on a sunlit street

I’ll pass you

still. without a beat

and your heart, love

will be in tears

if only then I’d care enough

to greet you with a hug

convince you to forgive forget

the ditches that you dug

the tears you never dared to cry

the love you never gave

the laughter on your lips would dry

the time you’d waist away

I hope by then you’ve introduced

some heaven to your hell

I hope your days will have been blessed

as mine since our farewell

İlk

İlk kendimi sevdim
İlk sevdim kendimi

Sonra seni gördüm de
Sevgim büyüdü. 

Sonra seni gördüğümde

Sevgim büyüdü. 

Selam

Seni severek fakt kendimi unutmam

Acı ile kalbimizde yakamıyor

Aşk

Sensiz iyiyim

Senle de

Muhteşem herşey bence

lateks

kultuurikiht

mind hommikuti

viisakana peab

ja bussides ei trügi

jaid ma salamisi nea

hää kasvatus ei kõlista

mu tassis lusikat

ja vabadusekellale

ei viipa rusikat

ei delfis kiru savisaart

ei võõrast – ega isamaad

ja koerale,

ka hulkuvale,

kindaga teen pai

bio

a poet

lonely soul

drinks vodka until 7

and then, to add a touch

of class

gets first aid by 11

doğa

stern shadow limbs

they beckon me

to hug a distant tree

long leafy speech

a barking laugh

recite to me the creed

I read in paws of cats and dogs

my lover’s eyes

my baby’s breath

the dawning sun. the yawning fog

come come you are of me

come come embrace a tree

Dear,

I

Strongly

Advise

You

To 

Love.

Me

____________

I,

Strongly.

Advise You

To Love

"Me"

 ___________

I strongly advise You

to love.

Me=)

 ___________

I strongly advise You to Love Me.

You do:)

butterfly kiss

I feel from his lashes a butterfly kiss

my cheekbones keep burning with bliss
he's holding my hand and his eyes whisper love
our souls soon are soaring above

he said I remind him of a girl that he loved
not in this life but before
since then we're together whatever may come
and neither of us will conform

we met and he dared me to love and let go
his intellect sprouted my lust
he said though I’m pretty he most loves my soul
and thus he till now earned my trust


but sometimes fairytales end
and neither of us is to blame
I love you believe we well soon see again
your eyes will once more feed my flame

let them break every bone but together my love
our souls shall take flight and we'll soar...


I felt from his lashes a butterfly kiss
my cheekbones were burning with bliss
he held my dying hand and his eyes whispered love
our souls now are soaring above

manifiesta

I will never be broken again

I forever am

broken again...

there is nothing.

not a pain or laugh

or buzzing thought

shall now engrave my life

shall now fail in my life

to benefit my soul

I'm whole

Imagine

I was a boy when in my ears

 John Lennon’s songs would cry

Of joy because... he’s talented

And more, has such a heart

So yeah, and only from his voice

Not words, perhaps, I heard

„Oh boy my dear do dare to dream

and once you do, dream big“

My god, John

Thanks.

I needed this

And ah I dared to dream...

Today my life’s far less achieved

And what I dreamed’s untrue

You know, I was supposed to be

Rich, famous, hot like you

And what the fuck’s become of me?

[-An office rat in chains-]

I was a born performer, damn!

How could it go so wrong

I’ve let my dreamy childhood down

And ah, I don’t belong...

John, imagine, if you saw me now

Bit beaten down and bad

John, I am not a hero, how

Could I be anything but sad...

When I, as child, inspired to

Be... Lennon

Just like you

Ah, John, okay, I’ll let it be

Excuse my pain, please do...

________________

And yet, John, I was never wrong

I dreamed and I dreamed big

Guess what, I never failed at all

I dreamed

I dared to dream

And though I chose (?) to not pursue

Fame, fortune, audience, applause

Though I’m not Michelangelo, for sure

Or Ringo, Paul or George

Or Gandhi, or Tenzin Gyatso

And though I have some flaws...

I don’t regret, I don’t feel bad

No, damn...

I think I’m proud!

I did become, all that I dreamed

(and more)

I have a heart!

And I am loved by somebody,

The very best indeed;

Guess what, John, guess how did we meet?

While listening to your songs.

Guess where John, can you imagine...

A mirror. And a child.

I promised as a little boy

I promised and it’s true

You John, taught me to love myself,

And music,

Dreams,

I do.

(28. veebruar 2011)

over and under

... the influence

..

.

my thoughts are crisp in focus

and sharp enough to shave

I walk tonight

on somber streets

determined to get lost

each step I haunt the pavement with

more pressing is my aim

I want my mind to blur

disband all memories

cause now your skin, your eyes, your name

they echo

much like footsteps

in my ears

my love for you is like a cage I step in willingly

then shake the bars in fury to be free

I want to keep my feelings but

I also want to flee

both drown you

and to drown in you

to leave and keep you near

to love you freely and to love despite the pressing fear

of losing of abandonment

of life-long heart entanglement...

enough now, stop.

all fear is all so human

we love and we let go

I walk, mind washed by images

I freely let them flow

the smile.

the nose.

the eyes.

the spark.

the smells, sensations in the dark

the knowing, this is it

all that was before pales in comparison

all happiness

all pain

all love led me to you

and after you, in crowds of people

I forever am alone

sure, there'll be other laughs

and loves and lessons learned

but this

your soul caressing mine

my heart's established home

we love, we lose... so c'est la vie

life would be boring one-note

the spectrum of sensations are a storm from which to feed

sweet life, you do skip what we want to serve us what we need

I needed this

to know you

bekar, evimdeyim

my steps

the haunting echo

the empty dew-wet streets

black holes serve as the windows

I walk and I'm at peace

                       

________________________

(hell what a monologue of fear

cause come the passing days

and love will turn to empathy

and heart walk other ways...)

all that remains is gratitude

yeah, good that we could meet

but now my mind and soul and skin

breathe, drum a different beat

so thanks

and cheers

and I moved on

take care, my dear

so long

photopoetry

My contribution to JangleJam International Art Festival in Istanbul

Grr

I will flap my wings and decay your soul

in return for your magical smile,

so beware...

when your love's turning sour

I'll give you an hour,

to repent

or I scratch out your eyes

once I was loving, angelic and tame

you took me for granted too long

when an angel is wronged

her teardrops will turn into

into viciously acidic rain

so I shed my swanshiny wings

took a pair from a wrinkly old bat

as my darkness is spreading around you

I'll claw you

much worse than a cat

what I once loved, I will butcher with ease

as what you once loved you let go

did anyone warn you of withes or ghosts?

we are real. by tonight you will know

                                               (2010 august)

bye pai

sinu nina on endises kohas

huultel on endine värv

aga nähes neid enam ei usu

et silmad on samad mu peas

koos olla on poolikult tore

ja katki

on poolikult kurb

su suudlus vaid pooleldi veenev

mu naeratus petlikult suln

ristmikul pöörame rahus

minule - parem

ja sinule parem

eri radadel jätkame lahus