... the influence
..
.
my thoughts are crisp in focus
and sharp enough to shave
I walk tonight
on somber streets
determined to get lost
each step I haunt the pavement with
more pressing is my aim
I want my mind to blur
disband all memories
cause now your skin, your eyes, your name
they echo
much like footsteps
in my ears
my love for you is like a cage I step in willingly
then shake the bars in fury to be free
I want to keep my feelings but
I also want to flee
both drown you
and to drown in you
to leave and keep you near
to love you freely and to love despite the pressing fear
of losing of abandonment
of life-long heart entanglement...
enough now, stop.
all fear is all so human
we love and we let go
I walk, mind washed by images
I freely let them flow
the smile.
the nose.
the eyes.
the spark.
the smells, sensations in the dark
the knowing, this is it
all that was before pales in comparison
all happiness
all pain
all love led me to you
and after you, in crowds of people
I forever am alone
sure, there'll be other laughs
and loves and lessons learned
but this
your soul caressing mine
my heart's established home
we love, we lose... so c'est la vie
life would be boring one-note
the spectrum of sensations are a storm from which to feed
sweet life, you do skip what we want to serve us what we need
I needed this
to know you
bekar, evimdeyim
my steps
the haunting echo
the empty dew-wet streets
black holes serve as the windows
I walk and I'm at peace
________________________
(hell what a monologue of fear
cause come the passing days
and love will turn to empathy
and heart walk other ways...)
all that remains is gratitude
yeah, good that we could meet
but now my mind and soul and skin
breathe, drum a different beat
so thanks
and cheers
and I moved on
take care, my dear
so long
